Wow....What a difference a week makes.
And not in a good way.
A week ago, I was feeling pretty good and making progress. My long runs were slowly getting longer as I train for my first half marathon. Sure, I had a lot of work to do, but I was working on finding balance and was generally pretty happy with my progress. I was feeling strong and surprisingly confident.
I don't know what happened, but this week is pretty rough. I'm struggling a lot with exercise and diet and am generally just not feeling good. Everything is just feeling a lot more difficult than usual. My recent runs have felt awful - long, slow slogs that I have to force myself to complete. My eating feels out of control - donuts are both the best and the worst things in the world. And I haven't been able to get a good night's sleep in a couple of weeks. Even worse, that little disapproving voice in my head keeps getting louder and louder. You know what I'm talking about - the little voice that says that you are not good enough. Negative self talk is a pernicious thing that is incredibly difficult to stop.
I'm trying to push through, though. I'm sticking to my training plan, even if I hate it right now. I'm trying to reign in my eating, even though one of my co workers brought the most amazing donuts I've ever seen to work today. And if I can't silence all of my negative thoughts, then I'll do my best to ignore them.